Blast from the Past!!!

The novelty of being back has almost run out. This morning I went to swim practice. First 5am wake up in months and first real swim practice in awhile. While in the water I felt as though I had never left. I finally felt like I might perhaps be ready to start real training again. I miss it but at the same time there are things that I don’t miss about it…
Sometimes you leave and upon your return things have changed and are different. Certainly some things have changed but I’m noticing that many things appear to be the same. Upon my initial return last week I felt like I was a completely changed and different person. I felt like I had been away for ions. But now my life in BC seems like a distant memory and far away world. I’m back to being immersed in Ottawa and noticing the things that haven’t changed. Many of my friends are still at their government jobs doing the same thing day in and day out, my parents are still insanely irrational and well the triathletes are still training. This morning I was taken back to my life before I left. I could feel old thoughts, patterns and feelings creeping back to me. Within a short while I was remembering the past with fondness. Why was it that I left again? Maybe I should try and get my old life back? Damn, here I am thinking that I’ve evolved and determined not to look back. Determined to not ever put myself back into a position where stress, pressure, and burnout are strong possibilities. But at the moment only the positive thoughts and memories are floating about in my mind. It’s funny how we very often look back into the past with rose colored lens. Things are never certain or completely in our control. We never know for sure what life will throw at us. One certainty however is that time will march on regardless of what we choose to do with it and therefore things change even if we don't take notice...